Crying.

I'll have you know, I cry a lot. ALL the time. Probably every day. WOAH, stop judging me already, jeeze. It's not like, ALL the time, all the time. Just like, all the time. Or more like, just sometimes. Occasionally. ONCE in a while. I mean, not VERY often, like really, barely at all. Once in a blue moon. Yea, that's the one. I like, NEVER cry. I'm still like, SUPER manly and stuff. I could start going into all the details, but I like to think of myself as not-conceited so I shall hold off for the time being. If you really want to know, just shoot me a message and I shall indulge myself, erm, you, in listing all of my manly qualities. But, back to bawling my eyes out whenever I watch "How I Met Your Mother."

Did I let that slip? Whoops, I meant, back to how I barely cry at all. QUICK! Just imagine me grunting a lot and lifting some heavy things and hopefully the image of me curled up in a blanket with a cup of tea, bawling whenever something emotional happens in that show, will quickly dissapate. Not that that's a real image or anything.

Ok, but really, I do. Just don't tell anyone. I used to never cry during movies. For the first twenty-some-odd years of my life, the only 2 movies that I had cried for were: "The Bucket List", and "Click." Then, along came "Up." and tons of other movies that I can't even think of right now cause I'm starting to tear up just thinking about those first few minutes of "Up." Gimme a second.

Ok, thanks. I'm ready to continue.

I'm not sure what it is that makes me so emotional. That scene is just so perfect and they are so happy and then she dies and he is so sad and it's just...

Ok, no, I need another second. :'(

Ok, ready. Maybe.

Anyway, let's leave "Up" behind lest I start crying again. Onto: "How I Met Your Mother." That show is amazing. I swear this isn't a shameless plug that I'm getting paid for; it's really just amazing. The humor is amazing, and ridiculous, and that was the reason that I started watching it, but soon I found myself crying and I didn't know why. And I kept watching.

It's weird, because even though these characters aren't real, I still love them. Probably more than most actual people I know, but like I said, they don't exist. I mean, I'm sure I could find some people who are extremely similar to the characters on the show, but these characters aren't simply words being personified by actors on a screen, they are archetypes.

I cry for them because each of these archetypes contains a part of me, and I can relate to them so well. I see myself in their situations and empathize with them. The situations that they are put in, though exaggerated, are just like situations from my own life. A little too exact sometimes. It's creepy.

I guess, in the end, when I'm crying for them, I'm really crying for me.

Being in Love. With everyone.

When I love someone:

I don't sigh at them.
I don't laugh at them.
I don't talk bad about them.
I don't ignore them.
I don't harm them.
I don't cheat on them.
I don't steal from them.
I don't lie to them.
I don't agitate them.
I don't disrespect their desires.
I don't let my annoyances surface.

I would be patient with them.
I would get up at 3am and pick them up if they needed a ride.
I would give them my chocolate, even if I wanted it.
I would listen to their ideas and problems.
I would help them do work they can't do, even if I don't want to.
I would cry with them.
I would do anything in my power to make them happy.
I would do the dishes every morning for them.
I would drop anything I was doing to be with them.
I would lend them my favorite expensive bike.

I don't love everyone, unfortunately.

I realized, the other day, when I treated someone sub-optimally, that I didn't treat them poorly because I disliked or hated them--it was merely because I didn't love them. I need to love everyone, even the people that are annoying, or have wronged me, and especially the people I don't ever want to see again. They don't deserve to be treated poorly. Everyone deserves to be loved.

If I am not treating someone the way that I would treat the person that I'm in love with, then I'm not treating them good enough.